So, I spent my day today, trying not to let my daughter and husband get the best of me. At this point, I'm 8 months and 1 almost 2 weeks pregnant. I'm reaching the point of starting to know my limits, I went to put on my tennis shoes last week and a pair of socks, it took me 30-45 minutes to get this accomplished. I huffed & puffed, shoved & tugged. I've reached the point where I'm doing my best not to complain when people ask questions that are relatively repetitive. I half want to reply with nonsensical answers that don't make any sense and are extremely sarcastic, but I'm good and I don't.
Joannie is having a rough time right now, she's been missing her Great-Aunt Marion. Plus to add to matters, she's teething! Her two-year old molars are coming in and it's not a pleasant picture. She's still better than most children who are enduring the "Terrible Twos." But I also find myself, amused by the fact that even when I am frustrated with her and feel at the end of the rope with her, she finds some way to make me laugh. Maybe it's my hormonal pregnant state I am in right now, but incisive crying from Joan right now is not something that I enjoy listening to and it tends to get on my last nerve. But then I see her crying, the part of me that wants to make her life better for her wants to wrap her up in my arms and tell her everything will be okay. I find myself wanting to tell her as my mom told me many of times, "This too shall pass my love."
I find myself wondering what advice my mother would give me at this point in being a parent. I find myself questioning what advice my mother-in-law would have for her name-sake grandchild. I miss having my mom around and the advice she may or may not give. I miss not having ever met my mother-in-law or knowing her personality and advice that she would or would not have given. I wonder if my mom and my mother-in-law would drop everything to be here right now to help out with things. Don't get me wrong, I love my in-laws but I seriously miss the tradition of having my mother here or my mother-in-law. I truly do feel spoiled by my father and father-in-law, maybe not by earthly wares and goods, but I am spoiled by their immense love and devotion to me and my family. I know without a doubt they both love me and my family.
I just wonder what advice my mom and mother-in-law would give me and how they would advise me to proceed with the delivery of our second child. I'm quite often asked if I'm nervous or scared, my response so far has been this. I'm not so much scared for the delivery because I know what to expect. It's the recovery process that I'm nervous about, I don't want what happened with my daughter to happen with this delivery & recovery. So far, I'm good as far as the MRSA cultures are showing, now the next hurdle will be to find out how Baby Cormier is developing and if our due date is changing. So far for the last month or so we've been measuring about 2 weeks early which would then change our EDD from August 10 to the last week of July. I'm excited because I'll get to meet another one of my in-laws that I have not met, as Chris' Aunt Marion and Uncle Roy will be in California during that time frame. So about that time, Chris' Aunt Noreen will be coming up from Virgina to help out with things just in case I go into labor. Hopefully the two days, I'm alone Baby Cormier doesn't decide to make their appearance.
Either way, this is all in God's control and this being therapeutic, I am now going to let it all go. I will place my trust in God and hope for the best, along with trying not to think of the worse case scenario. Take care everyone and God Bless.
